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and she remains so enamoured, that if the Lord did not operate
another miracle, her heart would crack, and out of pure love

for this Beauty of Jesus, the soul would breathe her last, to fly
into Heaven and delight in this Beauty of Jesus. I myself don’t
know whether I am speaking nonsense.

In order to explain myself better about this substantial
speaking of Jesus, I will say something else. Jesus says:

“See how Pure I AM. In you also I want to find Purity in
everything.” At these words the soul feels a Divine Purity
enter into herself. This Purity is transmuted into herself,
and she reaches the point of living as if she no longer had

a body; and so with the other virtues. O! how desirable is
this speaking of Jesus. As for myself, I would give away
everything that is on earth if I could own it to have one

alone of these words of Jesus.

4 – The fourth way in which Jesus speaks to me is when
I find myself inside myself that is, in the natural state.

This also happens in two ways: the first is when, while
being inside myself, recollected in the interior of my heart,
without articulation of voice or sound to the ear of the body,

Jesus speaks interiorly. The second is just like we do it; and
sometimes this happens even when I am distracted or I am
speaking with other people. But one alone of these words
is enough to Recollect me if I am distracted, or to give me

Peace if I am disturbed, or to Console me if I am afflicted.
I will continue from where I left, saying, “and this is how He

did it”:
In the morning, I went to Communion, and as soon as I
received Jesus, I immediately said to Him: “My Lord, look
a bit at what a storm I find myself in. I should thank You for

You gave Light to the confessor in giving me the obedience to
suffer, but instead, my nature is so very affected that I myself
remain confounded in seeing that I am so bad. However, all

this is nothing; You who want the Sacrifice will also give me
the Strength. But the strongest reason in me is that of having
to remain for so long without being able to receive You in the

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