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Sacrament. Who would be able to endure without You? Who
will give me the Strength? Where will I find a refreshment

in my afflictions?”

And while saying this, I felt such pains in my heart
because of this separation from Jesus in the Sacrament, that

I cried my heart out. Then, the Lord, compassionating my
weakness, told me: “Do not fear, I Myself will sustain your

weakness. You do not know what Graces I have prepared for
you; this is why you fear so much. Am I not Omnipotent?
Will I not be able to make up for the privation of being able
to receive Me in the Sacrament? Therefore, resign yourself,

place yourself as though dead in My arms; offer yourself as
voluntary victim to repair for the offenses against Me, for
sinners, and to spare men the deserved scourges, and as

pledge I give you My Word that I will not leave you even one
day without coming to see you. Up until now you have come
to Me, from now on I will come to you aren’t you happy?”

So I resigned myself to the Holy Will of God, and I was
surprised by this state of sufferings. Now, who can say the
Graces that the Lord began to give me? It is impossible to say

everything distinctly; I can say something only confusedly.
But as much as I can, and in order to do the Holy obedience
which wants it so, I will try to say as much as it is possible
for me.

I remember that from the very beginning of my being

in bed continuously, my Lover Jesus would make Himself
seen very often, which He had not done in the past. From
the very beginning He told me that He wanted me to take
on a new method of life in order to dispose myself to that

Mystical Marriage which He had promised me. He would
say to me: “Beloved of My Heart, I have put you in this state
so that I might come more freely to converse with you. See,

I have freed you of all external occupations, so that, not only
your soul, but also your body might be at My disposal, and
so that you might remain in continuous holocaust before Me.

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