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You make me share in the sufferings.” Up until the morning,
I won I felt I was inside myself and free of sufferings
when, in one instant, the Lord came and drew me so much
to Himself that I could not resist Him. I lost consciousness
and I found myself together with Him, but so clasped to Him,
that as much opposition as I made, I could not detach myself
from Jesus. Being with Jesus, I felt all annihilated, and I felt
a certain blushing for the many reproaches I had given Him
during the night. I said to Him: “Holy Spouse, forgive me
it is the confessor that wants it so.”
And He told me: “Do not fear, when it is because of
obedience I do not get offended.” He continued: “Come,
come to Me. Today is the New Year, I want to give you a
present.” (That morning was precisely the first day of the
year). So, He drew His most pure lips to mine and poured a
most sweet milk; He kissed me, He took a ring from within
His side and said to me: “Today I want to show you the ring I
have prepared for you, for when I espouse you.” Then He told
me: “Tell the confessor that it is My Will that you continue to
stay in bed, and as a sign that it is I, tell him that there is a war
between Italy and Africa, and if he gives you the obedience
to continue to suffer, I will not let them do anything, on either
side they will reconcile.”
In the very act of His speaking these words, I felt
surrounded by sufferings as if by a garment, and I was unable
to free myself by myself. I thought to myself: “What will
the confessor say?” But it was no longer in my power. That
milk which Jesus had poured into me produced in me such
love for Him, that I felt myself languishing; and I felt such
satiety and sweetness, that after the confessor came and I
came round from that state, and the family brought me food,
I felt so full that the food would not go down. But in order to
do the obedience, which wanted it so, I took a little bit, and
immediately I was forced to bring it up but mixed with that
sweet milk that Jesus had given me.
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