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a little bit of human respect. My soul rejoiced very much for
I would be able to content the Lord, and therefore have the

creatures spared, but my nature was very much afflicted in
receiving this obedience; so much so, that for a few days I
was very saddened. My soul also was affected very much,
thinking that I was to remain for such a long time without

being able to receive Jesus in the Sacrament, my sole and only
comfort. At times I felt a war so very fierce within me, that I

myself did not know what had happened to me. The devil too
added many things to it, but my Good Jesus put a remedy to
everything; and this is how He did it.

I move on to speak about something else. By order of
the current confessor, I will obey in manifesting the various
ways in which the Lord has spoken to me:

It seems to me that the ways in which the Lord has spoken
to me are four; but these four ways of speaking of Jesus are
very different from the inspirations.

The first way is when the soul goes out of herself.
However, first I want to explain a little bit better this going out
of myself. It happens in two ways: the first is instantaneous,

almost a flash; and it is so sudden, that it seemed to me that the
body would lift a little bit from the bed in order to follow the
soul, but then it would stay there. And it seemed to me that
the body would remain as dead, while the soul would follow

Jesus, walking throughout the whole universe the earth, the
air, the seas, the mountains, Purgatory and Heaven, where

many times He showed me the place where I will be after I
die. The other (second) way, then, for the soul to go out, is
more quiet. It seems that the body dozes off insensibly and
remains as though petrified in the presence of Jesus Christ;

however, the soul remains with the body, and the body no
longer feels anything of external things even if all the
universe turned upside down; even if they burned me up and

reduced me to pieces.

These two ways, so different, of going out of myself, I

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