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He would compassionate me, telling me: “Poor daughter,
come to Me for I want to console you. You are right that

you suffer, but don’t you remember that I too O! how much
more I suffered. Up to a certain point, My pains remained
hidden, but when the Will of the Father came for Me to
suffer in public, promptly I went out to meet bewilderments,

opprobrium, scorns, to the point of being stripped naked in
the midst of a most numerous people. Could you imagine

a bewilderment greater than this? My nature greatly felt
these kinds of sufferings, but I had My Gaze fixed on the
Will of the Father, and I offered those pains in Reparation
for many who commit the most wicked actions publicly, with

open eyes, boasting about them without the slightest blush.

I would say to Him: ‘Father, accept My bewilderments and

opprobrium in Reparation for many who have the insolence
to offend You so freely, without the slightest sorrow. Forgive
them, give them Light, that they may see the ugliness of sin,
and convert.’ I want to make you too share in these kinds of

sufferings. Don’t you know that the most beautiful presents I
can give to the souls I Love are Crosses and Pains? You are
still a little girl in the way of the Cross; this is why you feel

too weak. Once you have grown up and have known how
precious suffering is, then you will feel stronger. Therefore,
lean on Me rest, for in this way you will acquire Strength.”

After I spent some time in this state mentioned above
about six or seven months the sufferings increased more

to the point that I was forced to stay in bed. Often that state
of losing consciousness multiplied, to the point that I would
almost not have one hour free. I reduced myself to a state of
extreme weakness; my mouth clenched in such a way that I

could not open it at all, and in the few free moments I would
have, I was able to take just a few drops of some drink, if I
managed at all. And then I was forced to bring it up, because

of the continuous vomiting which I have always had. After
I remained about eighteen days in this continuous state, they
sent for the confessor, so that I could confess. When the

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