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And the Lord, benignly, added: “Do not want to afflict
yourself because of this. What I want from you is that you

abandon yourself as though dead in My arms. As long as you
keep your eyes opened to look at what I AM doing, and at what
the creatures do and say, I cannot operate freely upon you. Don’t
you want to trust Me? Don’t you know how much I Love you,

and that everything I allow, either through creatures, or on the
part of demons, or directly from Me, is for your own good and

serves for nothing other than to lead the soul to that state for
which I have chosen her? Therefore, I want you to remain in My
arms with your eyes closed, without looking at and investigating
this or that, trusting Me completely, and letting Me operate

freely. If then you want to do the opposite, you will lose much
time, and will come to oppose what I want to do with you. As for
creatures, use profound silence, be benign and submissive with

everyone; let your life, your breath, your thoughts and affections
be continuous acts of reparations to placate My Justice, offering
Me, along with them, the bothers from creatures, which will not
be few.”

After this, I did as much as I could to resign myself to
the Will of God, although many times I was put in such

constraints by creatures, that at times I would do nothing but
cry. The time also came to have me visited by the doctor,
and he judged that it was nothing other than a nervous issue;
so he prescribed medicines, distractions, strolls, cold baths.

He recommended to my family that they watch well over me
when I was surprised by that state, “because,” he said, “if you

move her, you can break her, but not fix her,” since, when I
was surprised by that state, I would remain petrified.

So, a war arose on the part of my family. They prevented me
from going to church; they no longer gave me that freedom to
be by myself; I was watched everywhere, and so they noticed it

more often. Many times, I lamented to the Lord, saying to Him:
“My Good Jesus, how my pains have increased I am deprived
also of the things dearest to me, which are the Sacraments. I had

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