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men do to Me, making you share in My pains. For help and
comfort, I give you My Mother.” And He seemed to deliver

me to Her and She accepted me. I too offered all of myself
to Him and to the Virgin ready to do what He wanted; and
this is how it ended the first time.

After I came round from that state, I felt such pains, such
annihilation of myself, that I saw myself as a miserable little

worm that was able to do nothing but crawl on the earth. And
I said to the Lord: “Help Your Omnipotence knocks me
down; I see that if You do not lift me up, my nothingness is
undone and will be dissolved. Give me suffering, but I pray

You to give me Strength, for I feel myself dying.” And so an
alternation began, of visits from Our Lord and of torments
on the part of demons. The more I resigned myself, the more

they increased their rage.

A few days after what is said above, I felt I was losing
consciousness again (I remember that, at the beginning, every

time I felt such a state come to me, I thought I was going to
leave life). As I lost consciousness, Our Lord made Himself
seen once again with the crown of thorns on His head, all

dripping with blood; and turning to me, He said: “Daughter,
take a look at what men do to Me. In these sad times their
pride is so great that they have infested all the air; and the
stench that spreads everywhere is such, that it has reached

even before My Throne in Heaven. They act in such a way
as to close Heaven by themselves. The miserable ones have

no eyes to know the Truth, because they are obscured by the
sin of pride, with the sequel of the other vices which they
carry with them. O please! give Me a relief from so many
bitter spasms, and a reparation for so many wrongdoings

against Me.” And in saying this, He removed the crown from
Himself, which did not look like a crown, but all one piece,
such that not even a little portion of the head remained free,

but it was all pierced through by those thorns.

As He removed the crown, He drew near me and asked

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