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came to me? They were such and so many, that I myself I
don’t know how life did not leave me.

Now, as I had been in that state of sufferings for more
than one hour, my confessor came to call me to obedience;
and because I was in great suffering, I could hardly obey.

So he asked me the reason for such a state, and I told him
the fact, as I have described it above, telling him the place

in town where it seemed to me that it had happened. The
confessor told me that it was true, but that they thought he
was dead. However, then it became known that he was very
ill, but little by little he recovered, and he is still alive. May

the Lord be always Blessed.

I remember that, as I continued to ask for the Crucifixion

and Jesus would transport me outside of myself, He would take
me to the Holy Sites of Jerusalem where Our Lord suffered His
Sorrowful Passion, and there we encountered many Crosses.
My beloved Jesus would say to me: “If you knew what Good

the Cross contains within itself, how precious it renders the
soul, what a Gem of Inestimable Value one acquires, who
has the good of possessing sufferings.... It is enough to tell

you only that, in coming upon earth, I did not choose riches
or pleasures, but I cherished as dear and intimate sisters, the
Cross, poverty, sufferings, ignominies.” While saying this,
He would show such Taste, such Joy for suffering, that those

words pierced my heart through like many burning arrows,
to the point that I would feel life leaving me if the Lord would

not concede me suffering.

And with as much voice and strength as I had, I would do
nothing but say: “Holy Spouse, give me suffering, give me

Crosses. From this alone will I know that You love me if
You content me with Crosses and with sufferings.” And so I
would take one of the largest Crosses that I saw, I would lay

myself upon it, and I would pray Jesus to come and crucify
me. And He would be so good as to take my hand and begin
to pierce it with the nail.

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