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Few are those words, but I understood so many things,

that it is impossible to say all that I comprehended. In the
first words I comprehended the Immensity, the Greatness, the
Presence of God in each existing thing, such that not even a
shadow of our thought can escape Him. I also comprehended

my nothingness compared to a Majesty so Great and Holy. In
the word “I sinned,” I comprehended the ugliness of sin, the

malice, the daring I had had in offending Him. Now, while
my soul was considering this, in hearing Jesus Christ say
“Yet I Loved you, and at that very moment, I preserved you,”
my heart was taken by such sorrow, that I felt myself dying,

because I could comprehend the Immense Love that the Lord
had for me in the very act in which I tried to offend Him, and
even to kill Him. Ah Lord, how Good You have been with

me, and I always ungrateful, and still so bad.

I remember that it was an alternation every time He
would deign to come, I would ask Him now for sorrow of my

sins, and now for the Crucifixion, and also for other things.
One morning, while I was in my usual sufferings, my dear
Jesus transported me outside of myself and showed me a

man who had been killed by shots of a revolver, and who was
then breathing his last and going to hell. O! how much pain
was the loss of that soul for Jesus. If the whole world knew
how much Jesus suffers for the loss of souls, they would use

all possible means so as not to become lost eternally I am
not saying for themselves, but at least to spare Our Lord that

pain. Now, while I was in the midst of the bullets together
with Jesus, Jesus drew His lips close to my ears, and told me:

“My daughter, do you want to offer yourself as victim for the
salvation of this soul, and take upon yourself the pains which
he deserves because of his most grave sins?”

And I answered: “Lord, I am ready, as long as You save
him and restore his life.” Who can tell the sufferings that

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