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His Life and of His Pains, telling me that, in addition to the
Marriage which is mentioned above, we had one more left to

do and this was the Marriage of the Cross.

I remember that He would say: “My spouse, the virtues
become weak if they are not Strengthened and Fortified by the

grafting of the Cross. Before My coming upon earth, pains,
bewilderments, disgraces, calumnies, sufferings, poverty,

illnesses, and especially the Cross, were all considered as
opprobrium; but from the moment they were borne by Me,
they were all Sanctified and Divinized by My contact. So, they
all changed their appearance, becoming Sweet, Pleasant, and

the soul who has the good of having some of them, receives
Honour and this, because she has received the Vestment of
Me, Son of God. Only those who look and stop at the cortex

of the Cross experience the opposite; finding it bitter, they
are disgusted by it, they complain, as if someone had done
wrong to them. But those who penetrate inside of it, finding
it enjoyable, form their happiness in it. My beloved daughter,

I yearn for nothing else but to crucify you, body and soul.”

And while He would say this, I would feel such infusion

of yearnings to be crucified with Jesus Christ, that I would
often repeat: “My Jesus, my Love, hurry crucify me with
You.” And when He would come back, the first petitions I
would make to Him, which seemed to be the most important

to me, were these: sorrow for my sins, and the grace to be
Crucified with Him. It seemed to me that if I obtained this, I

would obtain everything.

Then, one morning, my most loving Jesus made Himself
present before me in the form of the Crucified, and He told me

that He wanted to crucify me with Him. As He was saying
this, I saw that rays of Light were coming out from His most
Holy wounds, and within those rays, nails, coming toward me.

At that moment, I don’t know why, though I desired so much
to be crucified by Him as to feel consumed, I was caught by a
great fear that made me tremble from head to foot. I felt such

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