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of highest pain and contentment for my soul. But it would
become very bitter for me when the scene would change,

and instead of I being the one who suffered, I would be the
spectator, watching most loving Jesus suffer the pains of His
Sorrowful Passion. Ah! how many times I found myself in
the midst of the Jews together with Queen Mama, seeing my

beloved Jesus suffer. Ah! yes, it is yet true that it is easier for
one to suffer oneself, than to see the beloved suffer.

Other times, I remember that, in renewing these Crucifixions,
my sweet Jesus said to me: “My beloved, the Cross allows one to
distinguish the reprobates from the predestined. Just as, on the

Day of Judgment, the Good will rejoice upon seeing the Cross,
so even now it can be seen whether one will be saved or lost. If,
as the Cross presents itself to the soul, she embraces it, carries it

with resignation, with patience, and she kisses and thanks that
hand which is sending it here is the sign that she is saved. If,
on the contrary, as the Cross is presented to her, she gets irritated,
despises it, and even reaches the point of offending Me you can

say that that’s a sign that the soul is heading on the way to hell.

So will the reprobates do on the Day of Judgment: upon seeing

the Cross, they will grieve and curse. The Cross tells everything;
the Cross is a book that, without deception and in clear notes,
tells you and allows you to distinguish the Saint from the sinner,
the perfect from the imperfect, the fervent from the lukewarm.

The Cross communicates such Light to the soul that, even now, it

allows one to distinguish not only the good from the evil, but also
those who are to be more or less glorious in Heaven those who
are to occupy a higher or a lower place. All other virtues remain
humble and reverent before the Virtues of the Cross, and grafting

themselves to it, they receive greater Glory and Splendour.”
Who can say what flames of ardent desires this speaking
of Jesus would cast into my heart? I felt devoured by hunger

for suffering, and in order to satisfy my yearnings or rather,
to better say it, in order to satisfy that which He Himself
infused in me He would renew for me the Crucifixion.

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