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it, she says to her spouse Jesus: ‘Sustain me with the fruits,
which is suffering, because I am languishing with love; and
where else can I show You my love other than in suffering
for You?’ Charity burns, consumes all other things, even the
virtues themselves, and converts them all into itself. In sum,
it is like a queen who wants to reign everywhere, and does
not want to surrender to anyone.”
Who can say what remained after this speaking of Jesus?
I will only say that such yearning for suffering ignited within
Me and not just yearning, but I feel as though an infusion
in me, like something natural, so much so that, as for me, I
believe that the greatest disgrace is to not suffer.
After this, on that morning, in order to dispose my heart
more, Jesus spoke about the annihilation of myself. He also
spoke of the immense desire that I was to excite within me in
order to dispose myself to receive that Grace. He told me that
desire makes up for the lacks and imperfections that there
may be in the soul; it is like a mantle that covers everything.
But this was not a simple speaking it was an infusing in me
of what He was saying.
While my soul was exciting itself with ardent yearnings
for receiving the Grace that Jesus Himself wanted to give
me, Jesus came back and transported me outside of myself,
up to Paradise. And there, in the presence of the Most Holy
Trinity and of the whole Celestial Court, He renewed the
Marriage. Jesus put out the ring, adorned with three precious
Stones white, red and green and He gave it to the Father,
who Blessed it and gave it back to the Son again. The Holy
Spirit took my right hand and Jesus placed the ring on my
ring finger. Then I was admitted to the kiss of all Three
Divine Persons, and each of Them Blessed me.
Who can say my bewilderment when I found myself before
the Most Holy Trinity? I will just say that as soon as I found
myself in Their presence, I fell flat to the ground, and I would
have remained there if it wasn’t for Jesus, who encouraged me
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