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Then the Lord said to me: “Go to the confessor and
ask him for the obedience. If he wants, you will tell him

everything I told you, and you will stick to whatever he says.
See, it will not be only for the Good of creatures that I want
these continuous sufferings, but also for your Good. In this
state of sufferings I will purify your soul thoroughly, in such

a way as to dispose you to form a Mystical Marriage with
Me; and after this, I will make the Final Transformation, in

such a way that the two of us will become like two candles
placed on the fire the one is transformed into the other, and
they become one. In this way I will transform Myself into
you, and you will remain crucified with Me. Ah! would you

not be happy if you could say: ‘The Bridegroom is crucified,
but the bride also is crucified’?”

“Ah! yes, there is nothing that renders me dissimilar from
Him.”
So, when I was able to speak with the confessor, I told him
everything that the Lord had told me; and since the Lord had

said to me those words, “ for a certain given time,” without
notifying me of the exact time during which I was to suffer
continuously, I took it as about forty days, more or less and

now it has been about twelve years that I continue to be in
it. But, may God be always Blessed; may His Inscrutable
Judgments be always Adored. I believe that if the Blessed
Lord had let me understand with clarity the length of time I

was to be in bed, my nature would have been frightened very
much, and would hardly have submitted itself to it. Although I

remember that I have always been resigned, yet, I did not know
then the preciousness of the Cross, as the Lord has made me
know during the course of these twelve years; nor would the
confessor have adapted himself to give me the obedience.

So I said to the confessor that the Lord wanted him to give me the
obedience to remain in continuous suffering for about forty
days, and I told him all the rest. To my surprise because

I thought it was impossible the confessor told me that if it
was truly the Will of God he would give me the obedience,
because, in reality, it was not that he could not come, but rather,

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