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And Jesus would say to me: “No, noI want you to obey

the confessor.” So, not to make it too long, now with one pretext,
now with another, He would make me go back to the earth.
Those jokes were very painful for me. It is enough to say
that I rendered myself impertinent, so much so, that in order

to chastise my impertinences, the Lord no longer allowed
these jokes so often.

I had spent about three years in this state already described,
continuing to remain in bed, when one morning Jesus made
me understand that He wanted to renew the Marriage not

on earth, as the first time, but in Heaven, in the presence of
the whole Celestial Court, and that I should stay prepared for
a Grace so Great. I did as much as I could in order to dispose

myself, but since I am so miserable and insufficient to do any
shadow of good, the hand of the Divine Maker was needed
in order to dispose me, because, by myself, I would never
manage to purify my soul.

One morning it was the Eve of the Nativity of Mary
Most Holy my always benign Jesus came to dispose me

Himself. He did nothing but come and go continuously; and
He would speak to me now about Faith, and then He would
leave me, and I would feel a Life of Faith being infused in
my soul. As rough as I felt my soul before, at the speaking

of Jesus, I would now feel it become very light, in such a way
as to penetrate into God; and I would contemplate now His

Power, now His Sanctity, now His Goodness, and so on. My
soul would remain stupefied, and in a Sea of stupefaction,
I would say: “Powerful God, what Power is not undone
before You? Immense Sanctity of God, what other sanctity,

as sublime as it might be, would dare to appear before You?”
Then I would feel myself descend into myself, and I could
see my nothingness, the nonentity of earthly things, how

everything is nothing before God. I would see myself as a

little worm, all full of dust, climbing up in order to take a few

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