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to allow me to comprehend well the evil I had done. And
then He would come back again, and I would continue the

accusation of my sins.

But who can say all that I understood, and explain, one by
one, the different affronts and the special sorrows which I had

caused Our Lord with my sins? I feel it is almost impossible
for me to explain myself also because I don’t remember it

too well.

Then, when I finished the accusation, which lasted about
seven hours, lovable Jesus took the aspect of most loving

Father. And since I was exhausted in my strengths because
of the sorrow more so, since I saw that that sorrow was
not enough to be sorry as it befitted my sins to encourage

me, He told me: “I Myself want to make up for you, and I
apply to your soul the Merit of the pain I had in the Garden
of Gethsemani. This alone can satisfy the Divine Justice.”

After He applied His pain to my soul, then I seemed to be
disposed to receive the absolution.

All humbled and confounded as I was, prostrated at
the feet of the Good Father Jesus, through the rays He was
sending into my mind, I tried to excite myself more to sorrow
by saying though I don’t remember everything: “Great,

immense, has been the evil I have done against You. These
powers of mine and these senses of my body were meant to be

as many tongues with which to praise You. Ah! instead, they
have been like many poisonous vipers which were biting You
and were even trying to kill You. But, Holy Father, forgive
me do not want to cast me away because of the great wrong

I have done to You by sinning.”

And Jesus: “And you do you promise to sin no more,

and to banish from your heart any shadow of evil that might
offend your Creator?”

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