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taking a few drops of light to write them on paper, otherwise, if I wanted
to put everything, I would act like a person who goes into the sea and

would want to hold all the water of the sea in his hand as much as he
takes, it all escapes him; but if he takes a few drops, he can manage to
carry them with himself.

So, everything was hardship in me, in the soul, in the body in
everything. Feeling so ill, I thought to myself: “Maybe it is no longer Will

of God for me to write, otherwise He would have helped me like the
other times. Instead, the hardship, the effort I have to make is so great,
that I cannot go on. Therefore, if Jesus does not want it, neither do I
want it.”

But while I was thinking this, my sweet Jesus came out from within my
interior and told me: “My daughter, one who must possess the Kingdom

of My Will, must not only do It and live in It, but must feel and suffer
what My Will feels and suffers within souls. What you feel is nothing
other than the condition in which It finds Itself in creatures. With what
difficulty It flows; what efforts does It not have to make in order to

subdue creatures, to make them do Its Will. How repressed they keep It
within their own will they take away from It the best of Its life within
them, which is Its energy, Its joy, Its strength; and It is forced to act

under the pressure of a human will, melancholic, weak and inconstant.
“Oh! in what a heavy, bitter, crushing nightmare creatures keep My Will.

Do you not want, then, to take part in Its pains? My daughter, you must
be a key, and whatever sound My Will wants to produce, you must lend
yourself to form the sound It wants to make. And when It has formed in

you all the sounds It possesses sounds of joy, of strength, of goodness,
of sorrow, etc. Its victory will be complete, having formed Its Kingdom in
you. Therefore, think, rather, that this is a different and distinct sonata
that It wants to play in you it is one more key that It wants to add in your

soul, because in the Kingdom of the Supreme Fiat It wants to find all the
notes of the musical concert of the Celestial Fatherland, so that not
even music may be missing in Its Kingdom.”

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