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the Kingdom of My Will. This is why I always repeat to you, ‘Be
attentive’ so that not one of My knowledges may be lost. You would

cause a ray to be lost from within your sphere, and you cannot even
comprehend all the good it contains, because each ray contains its own
specialty of good, that it must do to the children of My Will. And you

would deprive Me of the glory of that good for My children, and would
deprive yourself also of the glory of spreading one more ray of light from
your sphere.”

December 24, 1926
Laments and sorrows because of the privation of Jesus. Pains of

Jesus in the maternal womb. One who lives in the Divine Will is
like a member bound to the Creation.

I felt all in restlessness because my sweet Jesus was not coming. But
while I was raving, I would speak nonsense, and in the intensity of my
sorrow I kept repeating: “Jesus, how You have changed I would never
have believed that You would reach the point of depriving me of

Yourself for so long.”

But while I was pouring out my sorrow, sweet Jesus came as a little

child, and throwing Himself into my arms, He said to me: “My daughter,
tell Me and you, have you changed? Do you perhaps love someone
else? Do you no longer want to do My Will?”

These questions of Jesus cut me to the quick and, sorry, I said: “Jesus,
what do You mean by this? No, no, I have not changed, nor do I love or

know any other love. And I would love to die rather than not do Your
Most Holy Will.”

And Jesus, sweetly, added: “So, you have not changed? Well then, My

daughter, if you, who have a nature subject to changing, have not
changed, could I Myself change, who am unshakeable? Your Jesus
does not change be sure of this; nor can He change.”

I remained confused and did not know what to say, and He added, all
goodness: “Do you want to see how I was in the womb of My Sovereign
Mama, and what I suffered within Her?” Now, while He was saying this,

He placed Himself inside of me, in the middle of my breast, lying flat, in

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