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a state of perfect immobility. His little feet and hands were so stretched
and immobile as to arouse pity. He lacked the space to be able move,

to open His eyes, to breathe freely; and what was most harrowing was
to see Him in the act of dying continuously. What pain, to see my little
Jesus die. I felt myself placed, together with Him, in that same state of

immobility.

Then, after some time, little baby Jesus, squeezing me to Himself, told

me: “My daughter, My state in the maternal womb was so very painful.
My little Humanity had perfect use of reason and of infinite wisdom;
therefore, from the very first instant of My Conception, I comprehended
all My sorrowful state, the darkness of the maternal prison I had not

even a glimmer of light! What a long night of nine months! The
narrowness of the place, that forced Me into perfect immobility, always
in silence; nor was it given to Me to wail or to sob, so as to pour out My

pain…. How many tears did I not shed in the sacrarium of the womb of
My Mama, without making the slightest movement.

“And this was nothing. My little Humanity had taken on the commitment

to die so many times in order to satisfy Divine Justice, for as many
times as creatures had made the Divine Will die within them, committing
the great affront of giving life to the human will, making a Divine Will die

in them. Oh! how these deaths cost Me. To die and to live, to live and to
die this was the most harrowing and continuous pain for Me; more so
since, even though My Divinity was one with Me and inseparable from

Me, in receiving these satisfactions from Me It would take the attitude of
justice, and although My Humanity was Holy and pure, It was the little
lamp before the immense Sun of My Divinity, and I felt all the weight of

the satisfactions that I was to give to this Divine Sun, and the pain of
decayed humanity that was to rise again in Me, at the cost of so many
deaths of Mine.

“It was the rejection of the Divine Will by giving life to one’s own will,
that formed the ruin of decayed humanity; and I was to keep My
Humanity and My human will in a continuous state of death, so that the

Divine Will might have continuous life in Me in order to extend in Me Its
Kingdom. From the moment I was conceived, I thought about and
occupied Myself with extending the Kingdom of the Supreme Fiat within
My Humanity, at the cost of giving no life to My human will, in order to

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