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no account, and they go from fall to fall, up to their ruin.

Therefore, on this day I want you to make continuous acts of
humility; I want you to be like a baby wrapped in swaddling
clothes, who can move neither a foot to take a step, nor a hand
to work, but expects everything from his mother. In the same

way, you will stay close to Me like a baby, always praying
Me to assist you, to help you; always confessing to Me your

Nothingness in sum, expecting everything from Me.”

I tried to do as much as I could to content Him I would
make myself littler, I would annihilate myself, and sometimes

I reached the point of feeling my being as almost undone, in
such a way that I could not work, nor take one step, or even
one breath if He did not sustain me. Also, I saw myself as

so bad, that I was ashamed of being seen by people, knowing
myself as the ugliest as, in reality, I am still. So, as much as
I could shun people, I shunned them, saying to myself: “O!
if they knew how bad I am, and if they could see the Graces

that the Lord is giving me (for I wouldn’t tell anything to
anyone), and that I am always the same O! how horrified
they would be with me.”

Then, in the morning, when I would go again to
Communion, it seemed that in coming into me He made feast
for the contentment He felt in seeing me so annihilated. He

would tell me other things about the annihilation of myself,
but in ways that were always different from the previous

time. I believe that He spoke to me not once, but hundreds
of times; and if He had spoken to me thousands of times,
He would have always new ways to speak about the same
virtues. O! my Divine Master, how wise You are had I at

least corresponded to You!

I remember that, one morning, while He spoke to me

about the same virtues, He told me that because of lack of
humility I had committed many sins, and that if I had been
more humble, I would have kept closer to Him and I would not

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